Many have been asking about this book I was writing, and what it was about. I took a few pieces out of each chapter and turned it into a short randition of the book in poem format. So here you go:
The Story of me…it couldn’t be!
May 25th on a warm summer’s day, my mother in the hospital in the bed she lay, Pushin, and screamin, and lots of hard work, who know she would give birth to somethin that turned into a quirk. Then she had an idea she got from her sister, the only problem was she forgot to discuss it with the mister. Adoption she thought was the key and then off to her old life she would be. Not a care in the world did she have, she had that baby girl and it made her mad. If only she had that she dreamed of, then it would make sense to give me eternal love. The second guy came and blew her away, and all of sudden she had no bills to pay. She found her true love and who would have known that God had other plans that would be shown.
The second pregnancy came, and all of a sudden she was done playing games. Time to settle down and take care of her boy, this time she was excited and he was not a toy. Her idea of baby had finally come true, she had that baby boy and to keep him is what she wanted to do. Then came the second boy, and oh life was perfect, but she soon for forgot of the girl she sent ship wrecked. This girl was adopted by a family real kind, but little did she know her life was getting ready to unwind. The perfect little place this girl could call home, but soon in the world she would be all alone.
The first home was stable until I was four, and then all of a sudden I was grabbed out the door. In the car with a stranger, and at my age I only felt danger. To be taken form the place I knew as my own was making me feel trapped and to another place I would roam.
The first foster house was scary and I lasted a day, thank God for the foster care the next home was a day away. The next home was alright and scary at times to, but as a five year old you have no clue. This family cool and the kids were stars, but unfortunately this home would leave bad scares. Hiding under a bush as I got of the head start bus, I knew my foster mom was a big lush. Weather it was crack today or weed tomorrow, either way my pain would turn into sorrow. As I heard the words “Go get switch” I knew quickly to hide in a ditch.
Finally on a visit with the previous family, the case worker noticed I was bruised pretty badly. On to the next home is where I would go, but now as a six year old my self esteem was very low. Wondering why I wasn’t like the other kids with a normal mom and dad, and feeling my situation was making me mad. All the love in the world couldn't change me as a child, you put me through hell and it made me wild.
As this next foster family came to root, I didn’t really care, who gives a hoot. It’s just another house is what it felt to me, and all I wanted to do was hide in a tree. There were two parents in the home, and all I wanted them to do was LEAVE ME ALONE! They introduced me to lots of kids, and all I did was run and hid.
Little did I know this is where my real life would start, but all in all it was like throwing a dart. This was either going to be a hit or miss, and in the end would I only get pissed. I had all I needed food, shelter, and clothes, oh and lots of brothers and sisters too, it was so hard not to feel blue. The agency came to take my picture and put it in the press, what away to make a child feel less. I was now on sale to the public eye, and what other family wanted to tell me a lie. The ad didn’t run long, and all I could do was hope and stay strong. I was finally adopted into this with out a doubt, but all I could do was run and pout. But feeling scared deep down inside, all my soul was telling me was to still run and hide.
Now I am almost seven and everything in this home was going well, who knew if it would stay this swell. However, it would shortly fall apart, and who knew the molesting would start. Scared out of my mind as this boy would touch me, I would pretend to be asleep, but little did I know the secrets I would have to keep. I shared a room with the boys for a while, but then the molesting started to pile.
I finally told my sister and had to work up the nerve, but who would have know the punishment I didn’t deserve. The yelling and screaming of all I didn’t do, and the gripping of my arm made me feel like pooh. At that moment the anger would start building more and more, they had no idea as I slammed the door.
From seven to nineteen I did nothing right and all I wanted to do was put up a fight. I had the wrong friends, wrong grades, wrong attitude, wrong this and wrong that, wrong, wrong, wrong…really did it need to last that long? In the middle of all this you decided to show up, but showed my picture around my school, really? That’s what’s up? Yeah you maybe my dad, but that little episode made me mad. The kids at school were all kind of scared, and the worse part was they all sat there and stared. Your plan was to get my ass in your car, and take me away very far. You then were arrested at my school and I know you were thinking you would win that dual. You may be in charge of the street, but for once your strategy was finally beat. And as of today there you sit, yeah you know what I’m talking about in the pit. Father, that pit is called jail, and that is where you go when fail. Now that I think of it you aren’t a father, when it comes to my life you're just a bother.
I was finally doing really well, and what did they do, Yup that’s right, they continued to dwell. The only problem was when the focus was on me, your other children were where they weren’t supposed to be. Of course you had no clue, and when it was time to face it you didn’t know what to do. I may have gone to high school for another year, but all your other kids were out drinkin beer. I had goals and dreams, and things I wanted to do, but all you could do is tell me I had a loose screw. I grew very angry and wanted to fit in, so at that point someone had to give in. I packed all my bags and off I went, and off to a friends for two months I spent. Then all of a sudden the hate came to an end, I had to stick it out so my road wouldn’t bend.
I finally graduated, and oh all the time I had waited. I was ready have started my own life, but who would have know I’d feel like I was stabbed with a knife. I’m finally 21 and I had a close friend, that I cared for very deeply, but all of a sudden he became very creepy. We hung out night after night, and all of a sudden something wasn’t right. We were out at the bar having a good time, with a drink in one hand and his other in mine. Then all of a sudden I felt really funny, and who would have known I would be carried away like a dummy. The next morning I woke up and looked around, and naked in a bed I was found. I quickly looked for my clothes and they were on the ground. I sat there a moment to try and figure out what happened on the corner of his bed, and little did I know he would try and fill my head. That’s right, I’m not stupid, it was date rape and I should have know from the letters, cause he told me sold drugs to make his life better. If you knew me, you knew my motto, hooking up with me was like your chances of winning the lotto. I said not a word and this story has never been heard, but only by a few who already knew. This character is out of sight out of mind, and he will never be remembered, he is left behind.
So I had been through a lot, and a lot was rough, but again it’s time to move on, I knew I was tough. Got together with some old friends and we all got a place, who knew that would all be a disgrace. I was a little hesitant to have men in our apartment, all I could think of was oh the torment. From my situation I was a little fearful, and I was not about to get an earful. We had lots of fun, and went out all week, but who would know how little did we speak. We had this power with men and what did it do, it brought them back to our house and they wanted to screw. No not me, all you were doing with me was sitting on the couch and got to watch TV. I then started to see this was not a life for me, and all I wanted to do was to be free.
I started working with kids who were in trouble, and with my experiences I could save them double. I continued to go to school, and do really well. Who knew that life could be this swell. I worked really hard at what I did, and the nights were long, but all I could think of was I had to be strong. I then started to volunteer to teach kids about Christ, and oh what a feeling, the feeling was nice. Finally my life was out of the pit, and no longer did I wonder where did I fit.
I finally met this guy who was Christian and all, and we spent 5 ½ years together until he did fall. He was caught cheating on me with a girl from work, and boy did he look stupid, he looked like a jerk. The sad part was he was hooked up with her by some of my friends, but none of that, our relationships had to end. Friends are different as you get old, you sometimes learn they turn into mold. Oh well, my heart was broken for the time, at that point I was wondering who was next in line.
Two years had passed and I was still in the same routine, helping out others and living the dream. Along came another guy friend, and I knew in a moment he would be their till the end. He had a wonderful personality, and could relate to my life, with two survivors that must equal a right! The moment I saw him I knew he was it, his swagga, his look, I knew I was hooked. To watch him struggle through his situation, made realize I could be his salvation. I made my sneak in and played it cool, stayed low key knowin who would win the dual. Everyday got better and I hated it to end, and at first I was just lookin for a friend, But I knew I would make it to be his wife and he would be there the rest of my life. Every moment with him I wanted it to stay, but little did I know I would push him away. I tried so hard to be what he needed, but who knew I was a text away from being stampeded. I had just lost my job, and had to get rid of my place, and my eyes were stinging from crying like they had just been sprayed with mace. My heart had never been trampled on so hard, and you knew in a moment their goes my guard. People telling me what’s best, and everyone continuing to yank my heart out of my chest. I finally got tired and couldn’t take anymore, and had no idea how heavily depression was in store. Five months with no work, and in my head I was dealing with a jerk.
I was getting ready for to take a group of kids to a camp, and before I left my soul grew very damp. The one call you hope never to hear, little did I know it was very near. I had always gone for the yearly tests and little did I know I would not rest. All I hear in the call, was CANCER, and my heart stopped, who knew another bubble was about to pop! I cried for an hour or two and you always think, “This will never happen to you!”
Made a quick move to Dallas so I could find work, and not ever worried how the cancer would lurk. I struggle and get sleepy as I work a little bit, but after I have money for the surgery it will all be worth it. Coming to Dallas with my suitcase in my car, with just the little that I had, I’m not worried because my life will go far.
As I sit here wonder when Ill finish this book, I am no longer afraid to let people take a look. As I have had a lot of time by myself with God, I can no longer feel like my life is odd. What you go through in life can be a teaching moment to another, don’t ever feel like your life is a bother. As I sometime wonder how I make it through, was this really my life, Gosh! Who knew…
****I have had a lot of happy moment in life too that I am very thankful for.
This is just bits and pieces of my book due to those wondering
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
A Copy and Paste From my Facebook to get caught up...Sorry Im slacking!!!!
Things I have Learned About Livin In Dallas...
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Monday, August 24, 2009 at 11:37pm Edit Note Delete
So I have learned quite a few things living here. Some that are even funny to me, and some things that are not...
* So not all cities have people that wear cowboy boots and big hair. I have only seen one person with them on here.
* The teenagers here are very sexually active. I now know where the "poppin your collar" fad came from. It is so they can cover up all the hickies they have on there necks. Also, a 15 or 16 year old boy asked me if I would like to wrestle and that he'd wrestle with me anytime...wow! Not to mention I also think they started the fad of the thongs haning out of your jeans/pants too! The teenagers here need some guidence, but after you see some of their parents you'd understand.
* So I need to find a hair stylist here, but after seeing the african amaerican womens hair down here I am afraid of what I might come out looking like. So they have this thing here called quick weave where you are supposed to blend it in with your regular hair, bit for some reason they feel itis neccessary to glu the track to there forhead instead of blending it in. Not to mention have 4 different colors of hair in your head is also the trend. Really? Let's just give thanks to our hair stylists back in GR, they are great!!!
* There are way to many men out here...15 men to every woman, but the sad part is they are a little to aggressive with taking you out. It's such a race to get the girl, lol!
* Every little bug or living creature that you have not seen before is here. Big, smal, fat, fast, they are everywhere.
* The syle of clothing here is one extreme or another. Either really urban with matching colors hair to toe, or super name brand and preppy.
* If you want to go to church out here you will attend a mega church! Almost all churches have 2000 plus people, no small community churches except for in the country.
* The music stations are like nothing you have heard up north. They have R&B and rap stations here...with music we get a year or two later.
* The average car here, whether you have moeny or not, is an Acura, BMW, Jag, Escalade, or Sabb. My car is a piece of crap here and it's a newer one.
* They have a strong economy, and their is enough work here for everyone.
* No state taxes taken out of your paycheck, bu you make it up in daily tolls you have to pay to get to work. I pat $25 in tolls a week to get to work.
* I have an accent and everyone I talk to knows I am not from TX. The northerners talk really nasally from what I am told.
Their are so many differences that I could go on. But all in all it is great to experience new things, and new life. Getting use to it is key...But like I said before, you could not pay me to move back to GR!
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Monday, August 24, 2009 at 11:37pm Edit Note Delete
So I have learned quite a few things living here. Some that are even funny to me, and some things that are not...
* So not all cities have people that wear cowboy boots and big hair. I have only seen one person with them on here.
* The teenagers here are very sexually active. I now know where the "poppin your collar" fad came from. It is so they can cover up all the hickies they have on there necks. Also, a 15 or 16 year old boy asked me if I would like to wrestle and that he'd wrestle with me anytime...wow! Not to mention I also think they started the fad of the thongs haning out of your jeans/pants too! The teenagers here need some guidence, but after you see some of their parents you'd understand.
* So I need to find a hair stylist here, but after seeing the african amaerican womens hair down here I am afraid of what I might come out looking like. So they have this thing here called quick weave where you are supposed to blend it in with your regular hair, bit for some reason they feel itis neccessary to glu the track to there forhead instead of blending it in. Not to mention have 4 different colors of hair in your head is also the trend. Really? Let's just give thanks to our hair stylists back in GR, they are great!!!
* There are way to many men out here...15 men to every woman, but the sad part is they are a little to aggressive with taking you out. It's such a race to get the girl, lol!
* Every little bug or living creature that you have not seen before is here. Big, smal, fat, fast, they are everywhere.
* The syle of clothing here is one extreme or another. Either really urban with matching colors hair to toe, or super name brand and preppy.
* If you want to go to church out here you will attend a mega church! Almost all churches have 2000 plus people, no small community churches except for in the country.
* The music stations are like nothing you have heard up north. They have R&B and rap stations here...with music we get a year or two later.
* The average car here, whether you have moeny or not, is an Acura, BMW, Jag, Escalade, or Sabb. My car is a piece of crap here and it's a newer one.
* They have a strong economy, and their is enough work here for everyone.
* No state taxes taken out of your paycheck, bu you make it up in daily tolls you have to pay to get to work. I pat $25 in tolls a week to get to work.
* I have an accent and everyone I talk to knows I am not from TX. The northerners talk really nasally from what I am told.
Their are so many differences that I could go on. But all in all it is great to experience new things, and new life. Getting use to it is key...But like I said before, you could not pay me to move back to GR!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Things I have Learned Livin In Dallas...
So I have learned quite a few things living here. Some that are even funny to me, and some things that are not...
* So not all cities have people that wear cowboy boots and big hair. I have only seen one person with them on here.
* The teenagers here are very sexually active. I now know where the "poppin your collar" fad came from. It is so they can cover up all the hickies they have on there necks. Also, a 15 or 16 year old boy asked me if I would like to wrestle and that he'd wrestle with me anytime...wow! Not to mention I also think they started the fad of the thongs haning out of your jeans/pants too! The teenagers here need some guidence, but after you see some of their parents you'd understand.
* So I need to find a hair stylist here, but after seeing the african amaerican womens hair down here I am afraid of what I might come out looking like. So they have this thing here called quick weave where you are supposed to blend it in with your regular hair, bit for some reason they feel itis neccessary to glu the track to there forhead instead of blending it in. Not to mention have 4 different colors of hair in your head is also the trend. Really? Let's just give thanks to our hair stylists back in GR, they are great!!!
* There are way to many men out here...15 men to every woman, but the sad part is they are a little to aggressive with taking you out. It's such a race to get the girl, lol!
* Every little bug or living creature that you have not seen before is here. Big, smal, fat, fast, they are everywhere.
* The syle of clothing here is one extreme or another. Either really urban with matching colors hair to toe, or super name brand and preppy.
* If you want to go to church out here you will attend a mega church! Almost all churches have 2000 plus people, no small community churches except for in the country.
* The musice stations are like nothing you have heard up north. They have R&B and rap stations here...with music we get a year or two later.
* The average car here, whether you have moeny or not, is an Acura, BMW, Jag, Escalade, or Sabb. My car is a piece of crap here and it's a newer one.
* They have a strong economy, and their is enough work here for everyone.
* No state taxes taken out of your paycheck, bu you make it up in daily tolls you have to pay to get to work. I pat $25 in tolls a week to get to work.
* I have an accent and everyone I talk to knows I am not from TX. The northerners talk really nasally from what I am told.
Their are so many differences that I could go on. But all in all it is great to experience new things, and new life. Getting use to it is key...But like I said before, you could not pay me to move back to GR!
* So not all cities have people that wear cowboy boots and big hair. I have only seen one person with them on here.
* The teenagers here are very sexually active. I now know where the "poppin your collar" fad came from. It is so they can cover up all the hickies they have on there necks. Also, a 15 or 16 year old boy asked me if I would like to wrestle and that he'd wrestle with me anytime...wow! Not to mention I also think they started the fad of the thongs haning out of your jeans/pants too! The teenagers here need some guidence, but after you see some of their parents you'd understand.
* So I need to find a hair stylist here, but after seeing the african amaerican womens hair down here I am afraid of what I might come out looking like. So they have this thing here called quick weave where you are supposed to blend it in with your regular hair, bit for some reason they feel itis neccessary to glu the track to there forhead instead of blending it in. Not to mention have 4 different colors of hair in your head is also the trend. Really? Let's just give thanks to our hair stylists back in GR, they are great!!!
* There are way to many men out here...15 men to every woman, but the sad part is they are a little to aggressive with taking you out. It's such a race to get the girl, lol!
* Every little bug or living creature that you have not seen before is here. Big, smal, fat, fast, they are everywhere.
* The syle of clothing here is one extreme or another. Either really urban with matching colors hair to toe, or super name brand and preppy.
* If you want to go to church out here you will attend a mega church! Almost all churches have 2000 plus people, no small community churches except for in the country.
* The musice stations are like nothing you have heard up north. They have R&B and rap stations here...with music we get a year or two later.
* The average car here, whether you have moeny or not, is an Acura, BMW, Jag, Escalade, or Sabb. My car is a piece of crap here and it's a newer one.
* They have a strong economy, and their is enough work here for everyone.
* No state taxes taken out of your paycheck, bu you make it up in daily tolls you have to pay to get to work. I pat $25 in tolls a week to get to work.
* I have an accent and everyone I talk to knows I am not from TX. The northerners talk really nasally from what I am told.
Their are so many differences that I could go on. But all in all it is great to experience new things, and new life. Getting use to it is key...But like I said before, you could not pay me to move back to GR!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
*Oh The Frustrations of Moving!!!*
So I have finally started my job and love it! I am very happy that I am able to work, and be in a state that has a better economical status then MI. TX has a lot going for them and continues to develop more areas throughout the state. I will say that I am not use to working anymore, 5 1/2 month of job hunting was lazy work. My feet, and back, oh my whole body aches after a day of work, but I am just getting back in the swing of things and will be fine.
Since I have landed a job ad moved into my new place I have been excited to return home and get the rest of my life. More importantly my bed and furniture so I can relax sleep comfortably after a long day of work. So today was when the frustration started...well maybe after I started my job. I waas originally told I could come home to get my things the weekend of 8/23, then when I started they changed the weekend so I could help out with a project. Now this was frustrating do to plane tickets costing more, which is annoying with it being Labor Day weekend. The most frustrating part is I was going to bring my things back this weekend by renting a uhaul or budget truck, etc. However, after pricing them the cheapest I could find was $982 not including gas. Well since I have been out of work and do not own credit cards, this is making it a little more difficult. I was hoping to get my things, but it looks as if I will not have them for a while longer. I was really looking forward to making my apartment home and sleeping in my own bed. However this wont be happening for months :( So I am going to fly back home anyway and ship some boxes instead.
I guess when you make a transition as quick as I did there are going to be some ups and downs. One thing I need to remeber is that I have a job and health benefits and I just neet to be thankful for that. I guess the positive thing is I get to go back home and see family and friends...which I am so looking forward too!
God will take care of the rest, and believe in he is looking out for me...as he always has.
Since I have landed a job ad moved into my new place I have been excited to return home and get the rest of my life. More importantly my bed and furniture so I can relax sleep comfortably after a long day of work. So today was when the frustration started...well maybe after I started my job. I waas originally told I could come home to get my things the weekend of 8/23, then when I started they changed the weekend so I could help out with a project. Now this was frustrating do to plane tickets costing more, which is annoying with it being Labor Day weekend. The most frustrating part is I was going to bring my things back this weekend by renting a uhaul or budget truck, etc. However, after pricing them the cheapest I could find was $982 not including gas. Well since I have been out of work and do not own credit cards, this is making it a little more difficult. I was hoping to get my things, but it looks as if I will not have them for a while longer. I was really looking forward to making my apartment home and sleeping in my own bed. However this wont be happening for months :( So I am going to fly back home anyway and ship some boxes instead.
I guess when you make a transition as quick as I did there are going to be some ups and downs. One thing I need to remeber is that I have a job and health benefits and I just neet to be thankful for that. I guess the positive thing is I get to go back home and see family and friends...which I am so looking forward too!
God will take care of the rest, and believe in he is looking out for me...as he always has.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
One of the Better Days!
Today was a great day. I was fortunate to have the opportunity to hangout with Courtney who went to my high school. She had noticed on my facebook that I was moving here, and offered to show me around the area. She has lived here for 4 years and knew enough to show me where I need to go. She also lives down the road and around the corner, which is nice to know someone is near with a familiar face. We went in Dallas to a cute little deli, drove around a bit, then chilled by the pool. We then reminiced on high school days and talked about where everyone was now in life. It felt like I was back home with one of the girls. We had a good time, and it is nice to know we will each have a new friend in the area.
However, TX doesn't feel like home yet, and won't start till I get my things here. Oh how I think about the things we take for granted. All I have is some clothes, an air mattress, 2 plates, 2 bowls, very little silverware, 1 pot and 1 pan...all thanks to IKEA! So I went to the store to get tuna and was all excited about making it, well I get home to make it and I dont have a can opener. No can opener, no microwave, what did we ever so with out these things...I know, didn't eat cans of TUNA! So It will sit in my cupboards for 3 weeks till I get home to get my things. Oh roughing it can sometimes be rough! I am learning new things I guess, or more new things I should say!
Things will get better and I know this is the right path that God has chosen for me...or I wouldn't have gotten this far.
However, TX doesn't feel like home yet, and won't start till I get my things here. Oh how I think about the things we take for granted. All I have is some clothes, an air mattress, 2 plates, 2 bowls, very little silverware, 1 pot and 1 pan...all thanks to IKEA! So I went to the store to get tuna and was all excited about making it, well I get home to make it and I dont have a can opener. No can opener, no microwave, what did we ever so with out these things...I know, didn't eat cans of TUNA! So It will sit in my cupboards for 3 weeks till I get home to get my things. Oh roughing it can sometimes be rough! I am learning new things I guess, or more new things I should say!
Things will get better and I know this is the right path that God has chosen for me...or I wouldn't have gotten this far.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
.: A lot of "firsts" in my new Town :.
So in the last 2 days I have seen and done a lot of firsts. Well, I was beginning to think it was a myth that everyone wore cowboy boots and cowboy hats here since I hadn't seen any, anywhere. I finally saw my first person with both, and then right around the corner came his family and they all had them too! Now this is one fashion statement I refuse to make...NO COWGIRL ANYTHING.
My other first was going to an actual soul food restaurant. I ordered ribs, green beans, mace n cheese, and cornbread...sounds like alot, but it came with the meal. Lets just say I must not be a true girl of my culture because I was not liking it. First off the green been had pieces of ham in them and a funky seasoning, not for me. Then I love cornbread, so I thought, and this piece had pieces of whole corn in it. Not what I called cornbread in my book. The ribs and mac n cheese were great. Now for some reason when I told my friends Troy and Courtney they cracked up, and could not believe what I was saying. Now, here is another story that goes along with it. I am adopted, and so when I met my biological grandma on my dad's side for the first time I went to her house for dinner. Grand said to me,"Oh hunny, I bet you like BBQ don't you?" I said,"No not really, not a big fan of it" Grandma said,"Well if you don't like BBQ then you can't be from our family!" I said,"I just don't really like sloppy joe on a bun." My aunt and grandma started laughing. So I asked,"Do you like sloppy joe's?" Grandma said,"You think were grillin sloppy joe's? Hunny we are makin ribs, chicken, and fish...you have never had a real BBQ before, if not we have alot to teach you!" I was 17 years old, and I had my first real ribs. I didn't try the greens and have yet to have them. Needless to say when I told Troy the story of my first soul food run and what I didn't like about it, and you know the sloppy joe story came back up.
My last firsts have to due with the great outdoors. So I saw my first salamander just "chillin" in the parking lot today when I was bringing in my things to the apartment. I watched it for a minute and the thing didn't budge, then I moved and so did it. Then I just decided to walk towards it and I scared it away. Just an awkward things to see "chillin" in the parking lot. So then I start unpacking my things I brought along and as I get to the bottom of the bag there is a large roach in the bottom under my bible. I screamed and then stood in one spot for about 20 minutes trying to figure out how I was going to get rid of it. So common sense would tell you to shut up the bag it is in and get rid of it! I was so numb and scared of this bug. Then I called a friend to see what they looked like just to be sure, and what he described was in my bag...A ROACH! I then called my mom in MI to tell her, like she was going to drive here and help or something, lol! So then I decided to go to a neighbors and see if she had Raid. I picked up the bag quickly and got it outside of my apartment. So I met my neighbor Cindy, who was soooo nice, and had raid...even better. She then started asking me what kind of roach it was, as if I knew there were different kinds, I had never even seen one before. Then she asked if she could look in the bag and see what kind it was. She then asked me if I wanted her to kill it for me and I said YES! I must have looked terrified or something, lol! She then introduced herself and made me feel more comfortable by saying we did not have a bug issues here and she has lived here for 2 years. She also said if I needed anything that I can just knock on her door. I was so grateful she killed that roach!!!
Overall, I have had some awkward firsts here in good ole Dallas, but I will say they are all worth it in the end. This is definitely one of the bet moves I have made for my life so far, and with the help of the one and only...GOD!
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
My other first was going to an actual soul food restaurant. I ordered ribs, green beans, mace n cheese, and cornbread...sounds like alot, but it came with the meal. Lets just say I must not be a true girl of my culture because I was not liking it. First off the green been had pieces of ham in them and a funky seasoning, not for me. Then I love cornbread, so I thought, and this piece had pieces of whole corn in it. Not what I called cornbread in my book. The ribs and mac n cheese were great. Now for some reason when I told my friends Troy and Courtney they cracked up, and could not believe what I was saying. Now, here is another story that goes along with it. I am adopted, and so when I met my biological grandma on my dad's side for the first time I went to her house for dinner. Grand said to me,"Oh hunny, I bet you like BBQ don't you?" I said,"No not really, not a big fan of it" Grandma said,"Well if you don't like BBQ then you can't be from our family!" I said,"I just don't really like sloppy joe on a bun." My aunt and grandma started laughing. So I asked,"Do you like sloppy joe's?" Grandma said,"You think were grillin sloppy joe's? Hunny we are makin ribs, chicken, and fish...you have never had a real BBQ before, if not we have alot to teach you!" I was 17 years old, and I had my first real ribs. I didn't try the greens and have yet to have them. Needless to say when I told Troy the story of my first soul food run and what I didn't like about it, and you know the sloppy joe story came back up.
My last firsts have to due with the great outdoors. So I saw my first salamander just "chillin" in the parking lot today when I was bringing in my things to the apartment. I watched it for a minute and the thing didn't budge, then I moved and so did it. Then I just decided to walk towards it and I scared it away. Just an awkward things to see "chillin" in the parking lot. So then I start unpacking my things I brought along and as I get to the bottom of the bag there is a large roach in the bottom under my bible. I screamed and then stood in one spot for about 20 minutes trying to figure out how I was going to get rid of it. So common sense would tell you to shut up the bag it is in and get rid of it! I was so numb and scared of this bug. Then I called a friend to see what they looked like just to be sure, and what he described was in my bag...A ROACH! I then called my mom in MI to tell her, like she was going to drive here and help or something, lol! So then I decided to go to a neighbors and see if she had Raid. I picked up the bag quickly and got it outside of my apartment. So I met my neighbor Cindy, who was soooo nice, and had raid...even better. She then started asking me what kind of roach it was, as if I knew there were different kinds, I had never even seen one before. Then she asked if she could look in the bag and see what kind it was. She then asked me if I wanted her to kill it for me and I said YES! I must have looked terrified or something, lol! She then introduced herself and made me feel more comfortable by saying we did not have a bug issues here and she has lived here for 2 years. She also said if I needed anything that I can just knock on her door. I was so grateful she killed that roach!!!
Overall, I have had some awkward firsts here in good ole Dallas, but I will say they are all worth it in the end. This is definitely one of the bet moves I have made for my life so far, and with the help of the one and only...GOD!
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
It's Finally Happened...
Ok, so I took a break from posting for a while for the simple fact that I could not have anything positive to post. However, things have changed over the last week and now I have good news. Well for starter, I HAVE A JOB!!!! Yes, I finally have a job. The only thing is the job is out of state in Dallas, Texas. I had to finally take the step and look out of state for work to get what I needed and to be able to work quickly. I had applied for a few jobs, and in the first day of interviews I scored 2 offers. I accepted one and they already wanted me to start the next Monday. I still had 3 interviews left, and decided to interview for 2 more of them just to see what they had to offer. Now the sad part about starting the job Monday is, I did not get the chance to say good bye to family and friends, and my trip home at the end of the month is going to be in and out just to get my things. My next trip home will be sometime after Christmas when the retail holiday season is over. So, until then I will be looking forward to new friends and new adventures in a new state.
Now since I have been in TX I have done some exploring on my own. I went to several different malls and did lots of apartment searching. Also, just a Little myth I want to clear up...I have not seen 1 cowboy hat or 1 pair of cowboy boots. I am sure they're out there some where, but not everyone wears this stuff, lol. Also, the men here have a much nicer approach to woman the the Grand Rapids men. No offense to my male friends that got it together, but I don't get so called "Hollered" at here. They simply say hello and make simple, polite comments. Other them that, I did not realize how much people in MI are rude, it is such a more friendly atmosphere out here. One thing that I am going to have to get use to is the storms here. Good lord, each thunderstorm has been like a tornado, but I guess it's just normal here. I on the other hand was a little unsure with the 60mph wind, hail, and power outages. New state new weather, I'll still take it over the harsh MI winter weather. However, I'm lovein it :)
Now I am getting ready to move to my new apartment in 2 day and I am excited. However, I will be living on a floor with an air mattress, and my suitcases for 3 weeks till I can go back home. I am excited to get settled and live normal, but I am willing to sacrifice for the right changes in my life. I will still have my phone, scrapbooking, and laptop to hold me over till then.
I am excited for all the new changes in life and looking forward to what life in Texas has to offer. I am so glad that I had to go through what I did to get here, because it only made me stronger, and believe harder. The verse I lived by through my rough period, "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:10-12. God is good and has a plan for you, but to remember he does not go by you timeline, and he knows what you need and when you need it.
That's all I have for now, and will continue to keep you posted on my transitions in life :)
Now since I have been in TX I have done some exploring on my own. I went to several different malls and did lots of apartment searching. Also, just a Little myth I want to clear up...I have not seen 1 cowboy hat or 1 pair of cowboy boots. I am sure they're out there some where, but not everyone wears this stuff, lol. Also, the men here have a much nicer approach to woman the the Grand Rapids men. No offense to my male friends that got it together, but I don't get so called "Hollered" at here. They simply say hello and make simple, polite comments. Other them that, I did not realize how much people in MI are rude, it is such a more friendly atmosphere out here. One thing that I am going to have to get use to is the storms here. Good lord, each thunderstorm has been like a tornado, but I guess it's just normal here. I on the other hand was a little unsure with the 60mph wind, hail, and power outages. New state new weather, I'll still take it over the harsh MI winter weather. However, I'm lovein it :)
Now I am getting ready to move to my new apartment in 2 day and I am excited. However, I will be living on a floor with an air mattress, and my suitcases for 3 weeks till I can go back home. I am excited to get settled and live normal, but I am willing to sacrifice for the right changes in my life. I will still have my phone, scrapbooking, and laptop to hold me over till then.
I am excited for all the new changes in life and looking forward to what life in Texas has to offer. I am so glad that I had to go through what I did to get here, because it only made me stronger, and believe harder. The verse I lived by through my rough period, "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:10-12. God is good and has a plan for you, but to remember he does not go by you timeline, and he knows what you need and when you need it.
That's all I have for now, and will continue to keep you posted on my transitions in life :)
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