Tired of the Disappointmets...

WOW! Is all I have to say! I am tired of the disappointments, and tired of hearing "God has a plan for you!" I know he has a plan, but I hope he knows he has hit his mark of how much I can handle. Over the last 4 month it has been one thing after another...

-Lost my job
-Then got a text that my boyfriend was leaving me, with out explanation
-Then could not get any help for my Diabetes and had to pay almost $600/mo for supplies
-Finally got a job in FL, but the housing fell through and I could not afford any different, so had to cancel the job
-Had to move out of my apartment due to having to pay to live off insulin
-Had to move back to mom and dad's which is not fun at all and very uncomfortable.
-Turned 30 and don't feel accomplished at all
-Ended up in the hospital on my birthday
-The ex-boyfriend did $680 in damage to my leased car and is refusing to fix it, AHHHHHH!!!!!
-Got another job offer in Rochester Hills, then got a call the next week that they did not have room for me due to an internal candidate changing there mind on a promotion! I was so excited to leave and start fresh, and then slap right in the face.

I JUST WANT A BREAK OF THE BAD LUCK!!!!! I am at a point where it is so frustrating not to have a job and live where I am very unhappy, and still dealing with the ex's disrespect and refusing to deal with the damages of the vehicle.

I just want things to change! I have helped so many people out in life, and I am ready for God to give me what I need. This is such a hard transition and I am starting to lose faith in everything. I keep going and working my ass off for a job and just cant find one. I just need hope, and a sign that things are looking up. God when is it my turn?

Thought I had it all figured out, but for once in my life I don't know what's next...

So today as I am packing to move out of my place, and continue on the excitement of finally getting out of MI, my world came crashing down. I had learned that my housing was no longer going to work out due to a few situations. I just sat on the couch for about 3 hours staring at the TV, not even really watching. Trying to figure out this plan, and what God was trying to tell me. I ended up crying, and just feeling like I had nothing. Then I wiped up the tears and figure, what can I do about it NOTHING! This obviously is not the plan for me. I decided I will just have to stay at my parents, and figure it out from there.

I had an interview Friday that went really well, and I decided I will call them in the morning. It was a great company, and I would have loved to work there if I was still here. I was also told if I ever moved back to the area to look them up by the person interviewing me. So, I am calling him first thing in the morning!!!

I will figure out this plan, but it is killing me the longer it takes. Thank God I have faith!!!!

A Sigh Of Releif, But A Little Sadness...Fully God's Plan!!!

WHOOO HOOOO!!!!! I can finally have some closure on the job search. Just when I thought nothing was going to pan out. So yesterday, Thursday 4/23, I was in a little bit of confusion with God. First my movers backed out due the other things going on, then I got a letter that my unemployment was denied, and the final irritating thing was that I received 2 call backs about jobs I had been waiting on for about 2 months in MI. I was starting to doubt this move was never going to happen! So, I decided to take one of the interviews just in case.

Then all of a sudden crazy things started happening. The unemployment office fixed the issue, I had just answered a question wrong, then my doctor had called to let me know that I was going to get a year of insulin for free, which I had been denied so that was a big sigh of relief. Then, the interview happened Friday, it all went well until he stated that the process would take 4 weeks. I gave him my time frame and plans of moving, and that in order to stay in my apartment I would need a decision made by next week. He said that he would not be able to do that, and we decided the job would be there if I ever came back to MI. I walked out kind of bummed, because that was going to be my back up plan if things fell through and God was changing his mind about FL. I was then driving over to my parents to tell my mom how the interview went, and to my surprise the phone rang, and it was a girl that use to work for me in the past in my retail management days in MI. She was really excited to chat with me, and was actually calling me about a job I had applied for in FL. She was super excited to bring me on since she had already knew my work history. She said that she would need me down there to help her get things up an running by May 14th. I couldn't pass the opportunity up, and it came just at the right time when I was beginning to doubt that things were not going to work out.

I believe that God knew what he was doing. I honestly think that he wanted to make sure that I was OK with leaving what I call "Home," MI. I did go back and forth for a while, and thought I was staying in MI after my bad day the day before. I am excited to go, but sad to leave behind family and friends. However, there is a lot of excitement just knowing that their is a new plan for my life, and it is taking me on a new adventure. I look forward to my going away party and will be happy to see all my friends and family one last time. I never knew it would come so quick...Now let the stress of leaving begin!!!!!

This is the End, but the Beginning of a New Chapter

It's getting down to the wire, only a few more weeks of leaving 30 years behind. For the first time in my life I don't know what's next. Most of you know what I am talking about, and some don't. I AM FINALLY LEAVING MI, and moving to FL!!!!! Part of me is so excited, and the other part is sad because I am leaving behind great memories, my sister Wendy (my true best friend), the rest of my family, and my best friend Tony.

Over the last 3 months I have had some major changes in my life, which I believe God is trying to tell me their is something new. I split up with my best friend Tony...yes we were dating, lost my job, had to move out of my apartment to be able to pay for my diabetic supplies, and can't find a job in MI. WOW, can you believe your life can come crashing down at any given moment? Just when you think you are good. When I decided my job search was done in MI, and a few other things in life, it was time to move on. I started applying jobs out of state where I knew people. I waited for replies, and they finally started coming in heavily from the Destin, FL area. In my opinion this was a little weird considering how small the area is. So, I decided this is where God was trying to put me at this time.

Now I am just waiting for my unemployment to kick in and then I am off to begin my search for work. My plan is I am hoping to be on my way by at least May 16th for good...if not sooner! I am in the process of packing my things and getting them into storage, I hate packing. I have way to much stuff and feel like I just moved in my place. While I am waiting to leave I will crash at my parents and sisters. It will be nice to hang with the family before I go, oh and I didn't forget about my friends who I will have a going away party with before I go.

I don't usually blog, but I thought it would be a good way to keep in touch with everyone since I will be miles, and miles away. I am looking forward to my new path of life, and hope everyone will still be along side for the ride...oh my blog of course, no room in the car for anyone, to many clothes to take :-)

God has a great plan, and I can only trust in him to keep me on my path of life...